i always believe in soulmate
mates that inside-out become the place i can turn my soul to
mate that i can always write to, talk to, share with
mate that stays no matter what
mate that i find no worry though they no longer appear in our sight
mate that i believe would think the same thing of what i think
tapi aku sudah tebentur beberapa kali
idealisme mengenai soulmate-ku perlahan meluntur mengikuti perkembangan realitas
what is soulmate?
when you turn 25, ada banyak sekali hal yang terlintas di otak manusia pada umumnya
they called it logic
and the idealism about what soulmate is then became no longer a subject of life
to me, (should be) too.
i try to care no more about what soulmate is
i care no more whether God has time or not to match one to another
in fact, i met many spinster
a lost soul that finally being all alone because they are too ideal about who's the one
in fact, if it always God's privilages (d i spell it correct?), could we ever know?
in fact, when we believe that some one is made for us because we love them so bad
would they, who we're in love with, think the same thing as we do when they don't (in love with us)?
being 26 and alone is never easy
i met people who love me, well, one or two
but i don't find them as mine
and i, too, found love
yet, they don't find me as theirs
how complicated, how hard, how thoughtful life is when we're broken hearted
hu huuuu
i'm gonna cry
i always cry, i'm a crying woman
then soulmate, at the end, was only a word that humanize us
a word that keeps us thinking as a human
sebutan yang kemudian membuatku merasa nyaman merangkai kata2 yang sarat akan kegelisahan
dan menjadi topik yang menyenangkan untuk didiskusikan tengah malam dengan seorang kawan
sebutan yang kemudian hari kuharap akan kulupakan
sebuah kata yang suatu hari akan kutinggalkan maknanya demi untuk seorang suami dan beberapa anak.
demi sebuah realita yang jauh lebih bermakna
well, what soulmate is, or the right one is, when we can never touch their heart?
when we can never be with them?
when we find ourselves all alone at the end just because we love them?
it means nothing.
i wish i could
i wish i could be a human as normal
i wish i could be ana, rosi, nita, dita, mia, gita, pia, iyem, karti, uci, aci, u'ut, etc..
and stop thinking that i were iskula
i wish i could dig a ten feet hole and burry iskula deep down
to give Ratih a big space to control herself
to have a husband and kid
to earn money for unborn musa and maryam
to cook meal for their daddy
to hold a healty house and spend weekend in the living room telling the kid that homer simpson is not cool at all
to share the empty side of my bed with someone who's faithful
to someone that i finally in love because he's fithful
to someone who keeps me alive with their faithfulness
God please...
send me a man who's faithful
send me him, who i love til i hurt my heart
to be the man who's faithful and ready to share the side of his bed with me
only me!
mates that inside-out become the place i can turn my soul to
mate that i can always write to, talk to, share with
mate that stays no matter what
mate that i find no worry though they no longer appear in our sight
mate that i believe would think the same thing of what i think
tapi aku sudah tebentur beberapa kali
idealisme mengenai soulmate-ku perlahan meluntur mengikuti perkembangan realitas
what is soulmate?
when you turn 25, ada banyak sekali hal yang terlintas di otak manusia pada umumnya
they called it logic
and the idealism about what soulmate is then became no longer a subject of life
to me, (should be) too.
i try to care no more about what soulmate is
i care no more whether God has time or not to match one to another
in fact, i met many spinster
a lost soul that finally being all alone because they are too ideal about who's the one
in fact, if it always God's privilages (d i spell it correct?), could we ever know?
in fact, when we believe that some one is made for us because we love them so bad
would they, who we're in love with, think the same thing as we do when they don't (in love with us)?
being 26 and alone is never easy
i met people who love me, well, one or two
but i don't find them as mine
and i, too, found love
yet, they don't find me as theirs
how complicated, how hard, how thoughtful life is when we're broken hearted
hu huuuu
i'm gonna cry
i always cry, i'm a crying woman
then soulmate, at the end, was only a word that humanize us
a word that keeps us thinking as a human
sebutan yang kemudian membuatku merasa nyaman merangkai kata2 yang sarat akan kegelisahan
dan menjadi topik yang menyenangkan untuk didiskusikan tengah malam dengan seorang kawan
sebutan yang kemudian hari kuharap akan kulupakan
sebuah kata yang suatu hari akan kutinggalkan maknanya demi untuk seorang suami dan beberapa anak.
demi sebuah realita yang jauh lebih bermakna
well, what soulmate is, or the right one is, when we can never touch their heart?
when we can never be with them?
when we find ourselves all alone at the end just because we love them?
it means nothing.
i wish i could
i wish i could be a human as normal
i wish i could be ana, rosi, nita, dita, mia, gita, pia, iyem, karti, uci, aci, u'ut, etc..
and stop thinking that i were iskula
i wish i could dig a ten feet hole and burry iskula deep down
to give Ratih a big space to control herself
to have a husband and kid
to earn money for unborn musa and maryam
to cook meal for their daddy
to hold a healty house and spend weekend in the living room telling the kid that homer simpson is not cool at all
to share the empty side of my bed with someone who's faithful
to someone that i finally in love because he's fithful
to someone who keeps me alive with their faithfulness
God please...
send me a man who's faithful
send me him, who i love til i hurt my heart
to be the man who's faithful and ready to share the side of his bed with me
only me!
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